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2010-11-30T01:05:00.000-08:00

hi blogger, I'm here to tell you that, ever since august 9th, on that very day I started to neglect you, that was when our relationship ended. we had maybe a couple of sweet memories, but I don't care anymore. I currently have a love affair with tumblr. It speaks to me and understands me, unlike you, still looking so crapping for the past 2 years I've been using screamlets.blogspot.com. And to be honest, I did not intend to name you screamlets, it was ripped from some girl I was friends with in primary school. I thought it fitted my personality. I know. Shocking. And honestly, you're so unattractive, you retain my awful memories in my archives, and when (now) I'm looking through my past posts, I feel like these bad memories come back with me and suddenly I searched my mind (literally) for an overriding purpose of my life, straining so hard I come to a conclusion that it is nothingness. Terrible feeling. You almost had infected me with social autism, like a plague that will stick to me like parasites like bad memories on screamlets.blogspot, hence putting me in grave danger. maybe it's me, maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems, maybe I've been illustrating this whole crazy tale by myself, but really, I don't see a need for me to go on, It has to end, and so here I am, today, to clear things up. Next time I'll do a better job for sure, so i have to say, sorry if i had let you down, not treasuring you, not drawing internet trolls to you, not constantly being online for you, for the neglect, If, you do actually have feelings, and you know what I am talking about. This whole thing sounds dumb, but who cares, no one's going to read this after you've shut down. Thanks for everything. Goodbye.

2010-08-09T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hi.

this is crazy. i've got no courage to post so here's a blank post for you to stare and spit your vulgar.

chalkmanifesto.

2010-07-04T23:29:00.000-07:00

LOL!

Man, I'd give you Buttsex.

your mood swings.

2010-06-25T04:43:00.000-07:00

temporary.

i will be on hiatus. 

i will be back with more to share. 

and hopefully a better crowd of listeners.

家.

going SOLO

2010-06-16T07:51:00.001-07:00

like the boys tall, dark and handsome.
lol, i am just like everyone else. so predictable.
soon you'll hear me singing JB. but i'll watch Glee thou. its nice! ha ha. :D

i want to scribble my ~~anger~~ on a piece of paper and throw it to the jellyfishes while kayaking.

YOG - GAH.

2010-06-11T00:02:00.000-07:00

RhettandLink. :D

I am currently listening to 30 seconds to mars - This Is War. loving it!
i love Jerad Leto. he is the lead singer of the band.

He played a homosexual and bestfriend role of Alexander the Great (in the movie and in Greek mythology.)

39, but still so hot. i preferred his natural black hair thou. c'mon, go and search him on google ;-)

I'd always think that two male bestfriends were gay -in secret-
wahlau, I'm so sickkkkkkkkkkkkk.

men werking it.

2010-06-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

Wud'up? Holidays are a great advantage to me! sleeping is taking over 3/4 of my day.

i missed it. i never slept so deeply for such a long time. life's good :D

I went to the Book Expo yesterday. it sucked cos there were only two Book publishers selling really crappy old books. i sourced for one nice book "The Book Of Loss" at around $7. it is about 'war' between women as fall in love with a con man, then they try to bring the man back as well as winning his affection.

i love scandal.

btw - Kodaka Kazuma, my favourite Yaoi/Doujinshi author just published 3 mangas!

one of them is already out in mangafox.com, its called Border.

Detective stuff, i think Yaoi is pretty dense so read it! you won't regret it!

Another 2 of her releases are coming out in September ): so it'll probably come out next year *frowns*

then again, for Kodaka's new works, i'll wait, wait, wait. :>

oh! & do you MOFOS know that Yaoi is Boys Love written by Female Authors, targeted for Female Audiences?

and do you know the specific term for Boys Love written by Male/Bi-Male/Gay Authors, targeted for Gay Audiences, is called Bara.

...

so im not a "gay in female body" :0

but that does'nt change my mind of desiring to be gay.

WEIRD.

2010-06-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

okay ive been thinking for so long about what to post today, then my dad comes back with package for me....right now.

a clothes package. now you get it?

the strange thing is that IVE STOPPED BUYING FROM THE INTERNET SHOPS SINCE EXAMS. and that's freaky, cos someone out there knows my address and is sending me this 'mysterious mail'

i don't remember buying anything before Shanghai trip, seriously.

worse enough, that person could've sent nice clothes instead of some trashy shitty second-hand shit wipes.

im dumping it. fuck that blogshop owner, or whoever. *shivers

how do you live?

2010-05-31T08:30:00.000-07:00

幻想，想法，梦想，目标，理想。哪一个是真实的呢？

i am Nicole Seah Xin Yi.
i am fourteen.
i call myself NSXY.
i live in a hdb flat in Singapore.
i am the only child in my family.

i love to read and write.
i love science.
i can't do math.
my current hobby is reading chinese literature books
and listening to jay chou's songs.
i have an uneven hair length.
i eat a balanced diet but i am fleshy.
i hate spectacles.
i hate contact lenses.
i want to undergo eye lasik.
i am attracted to gays.
i am sick of my life.

i will pack up my stuff and leave my mundane, routine life.
i will travel to many countries.
i will study in England, London, and Shanghai.
i will study in Shanghai's best bilingual university and Oxford.
somehow i will.
someday i will start writing about my life.
someday i will give lectures.
someday i will be on tv.
someday i will be recognised in the crowd.
someday i will be famous.
someday i will be invited to Ellen deGenres 's talk show.
someday i will seat on the left seat next to Ellen deGenres.
someday i will go to USA.
someday i will be an ambassador.
someday i will promote world peace and saving gaia.
someday i will help people fufill their dreams.
someday i am going to get married and have two children.
someday i am going to built a big house for my whole family.

perhaps,
just one day, i am going to live my life as good as the way i want it to be.

Shanghai

2010-05-30T01:32:00.000-07:00

taken by myself :)

one week passed so quickly. i am already missing Shanghai. Life's too short, too versatile. how many people can actually settle down and live life the way they want to?

aaahh, i see that you're drooling.

2010-05-21T01:03:00.000-07:00

commes de garcons via tumblr.

i think i have a sexed-brain-damaged mind disorder.

naw just kidding, having a moment hullo ;-))

oh and today i got my spiked in my drink.
i will never forgive them unless they apologised.

if you think that's too much of me, think again. and again if you need to.
and if you still think that way,
then fuck you colonel.

BITCH, WRONG INFO.

2010-05-18T07:10:00.000-07:00

today's "not a good day" day. well heck it, tommorrow's going to be a better day:)

this sounds so cliche.

ohyes, this post is on ADAMLAMBERT again!

changed my ADAM DP at the sidebar again. nice right ^^

i think i should move to tumblr but im just so dang lazy :\

since blogger's been improving its HTML, blah.

ah, yeah, whatever, soon, kay.

@Adam's Twitpic.

2010-05-07T01:26:00.000-07:00

Adam: "This? Oh it's just my pet cactus"
Interviewer lady: "Can I touch it?"
Adam: "You can touch it anytime"
lmaaaaaaaaao. i love Adam.

Im running the Internet!

2010-05-06T21:47:00.000-07:00

♥REDROVER

only three more exam papers and one piano exam!
its going to be helluva fun with those muthafuckas and that Miss Weird-Cropped Hair.
sorry for my language. i have a very bad impression of her.

and i miss my grandmother especially after watching shane dawson's video about the passing of grandma Dawson. you will always live in our hearts grandma Dawson.

Nazira;

hey sexy lady♥ i missed you too (: movie any time? with spongebob flat-face? ha ha.

my ears orgasmed!

N, LOVE.

2010-04-23T10:58:00.000-07:00

"LYK OMGZZ Nicole is soooo frickin awesome!"

"Nicole, you have a nasty mind but that was a good joke!"

"Damn your so hot, you're so Nicole!"

ha ha ha. i just love how urbandictionary.com describes my name :D

anger

2010-04-08T04:29:00.000-07:00

this was how i felt like being lectured for 40 mins.

MIA- SRY.

2010-04-07T06:55:00.000-07:00

ohsweet.
hey glamorouses.
my apologies for being away for a month.
i have been busy with homework and emotions like everyone else is.
& freaking out. well, on the inside. its like im abusing my mind. screw-me.
im gna have to self-praise much often.

and i changed blankets. yay~
my new blanket is really cute, it is made of cotton, and fyi ; super expensive as some people use it as bed covers or bed warmers, and there is two different designs on the inside and outside of the blanket, in black and white. kind of cool that you can sleep on any side of the blanket.
one side has a checkered design and one has a polka dots design. uber cutee. love it especially when nights are kind of cold in sg and though the blanket is thin, its warm! gottaluvcotton. ha ha. <3

just so you know, i googled the word glamorous and yes the word you just read is the correct way of spelling it. :D

2009-06-23T02:28:00.000-07:00

I look like some kinda gangster this photo -.-

Cus im lazy to edit it, so yah.
i'll just get to the point alright.
Yesterday, used comp until 1 am plus. Had to save things in my thumb drive.
so happens dad just came bck frm work also :O

Then he handed me my allowance.

see what im holding?
its not just normal bucks. its 2 American Dollars!
and my first instinct was to sniff it. LOL.
i asked dad whre he got this money, he said its a tip from a American man. phew weet.

Americans are very generous beings. i never heard of any Singaporeans giving tips to any midnight-shift drivers before uh.

does that sound ROFLMAO! to you? hahah.

i gotta sign off for awhile, cus i use comp secretly, then mum's coming home soon!
See ya folks :D

--continued--

oh sweet, 54%.

lalala, did nothing much today.
also got nothing to do, except for

WATCHTVWATCHTVWATCHTV

oh that reminds me.

Research shows that most people who watch more than 4 hrs of tv are obese/over weight.

DOES THAT MEAN IM FAAAT?

shouldnt be lah. im eating on a regular basics, and i exercise every night. teehee.

Just now, mum was fixing the wireless network, nothing to do agains.

then went to do Assesments!

omgee, Gregory is sooo right. ima NERD.

Aiyaah, so what? i like geeks too y'd know. Geeks Are HOTSTUFFS :D

hmm, also nothing much to say. Tagg people! im getting Bored :x